I’ve been lax.  I want to be posting more but it’s difficult for me since I don’t have an Internet connection at home.  I rely on the kindness of my friends and the local library for their Internet connections. 

Back in July I started the process to receive ODSP (Ontario Disability Support Program) benefits.  Yesterday I got a letter stating that they found that I have a substantial disability.  I’m going to be contacted for an interview to complete the process before I start receiving anything. 

Well, I was right.  It’s another Conservative minority.  There was low voter turnout, as well, just like I thought there would be.  According to the CBC:

Tuesday’s federal poll revealed an electorate that seemed apathetic in terms of who should lead the country, with voter turnout appearing to be the lowest in the history of Confederation.

I don’t understand how people can not bother to vote.  Why wouldn’t you want to have your voice heard?  The candidate you voted for may not get elected but they never will if you don’t vote.  Nothing will ever change if you don’t vote.

This election was pointless in my opinion.  It cost around 300 million dollars just to end up in almost the same position we were in yesterday.  That money could have been better spent on other things.  If it were managed correctly, it could have been put into the health care system.  Canada may be known for it’s “free” health care but it’s coming apart at the seams and nothing’s being done about it.  It could have been used to help the poor and the homeless.  The rich don’t need to keep richer while the poor get poorer.

Hopefully the next election we’ll have some change.

Today is election day in Canada. I haven’t voted yet but I will this evening. I didn’t look into the candidates and parties well enough. I had planned to do that ages ago and didn’t do a very good job. I think I’ve come to a decision on who I’m voting for.

Another holiday weekend is drawing to a close.  Once again I have survived it.  It started off rather rocky but is coming to a rather gentle ending.  Thanksgiving dinner was at my Aunt’s last night.  It went much better than I thought it would.  I was expecting fights and general misery.  It went rather well.  I had a good time.

Tonight I feel like crap.  I’ve been feeling crap-like for the last week or so.  It comes and goes.  Things were bound to go in the shitter.  I feel like a piece of shit.  I sit around on my ass doing nothing of value.  I feel like I don’t do anything for anyone or even myself.  It’s like, what’s the point?  I get to where I care about things and then it all comes tumbling down.

Just recently I found out, second hand,  that someone who I thought was a friend thinks I’m lower than dirt because I have Bipolar Disorder.  I was told  that when they found out, they said they “knew it” and seemed smug about it.  Just because you found out about it and apparently suspected it doesn’t mean you’ve won anything.  It means nothing.

The last week or so has been going fairly well.  I’ve been feeling more motivated and relaxed.  I’ve been getting some things done that I’ve been putting off for weeks and months.  Things are getting more organized around my house.  Half my bedroom’s painted.  It feels good to get some stuff done.

I tried out a new drug yesterday. It was supposed to help with my anxiety troubles. It worked all right. So well in fact that I slept almost the whole day away. It’s hard to be anxious about anything when you’re asleep (for the most part at least). I skipped it today since I didn’t want to pull another all-day sleepfest. I’m going to tell my therapist about it and we’ll have to try something else. Risperdal is definitely not for me. Treatment for anxiety is one of its off-label uses anyway. It was overkill in my case. Trial and error comes with the territory.

I managed to land myself a job last week. It was completely out of the blue. I had worked for the company previously but didn’t leave on good terms. I was floored when I was hired right at the interview. I,